03/15/2021
As I sit here and reflect, while listening to the rain fall from the living room window, I can only think of the things I’ve failed at. It’s as if there’s this checklist that I measure myself by. I guess that’s what a conscience that isn’t seared does, in which case I should be thankful.
Although tonight I was able to find several things out of order concerning my life, the one thing that I can say has the power to have the greatest expeditious impact on my life is the fact that I’ve talked too much and shared too much in this past couple of months.
I realize that I was concerned that people would see me in my season of transition and think that I was unlearned or that what they see right now is the sum of who I am. Simply put, I was trying to defend a position that I felt others were trying to make me earn. Oh baby, that’s when pride kicked in. 😔
In my mind I didn’t have to earn from people what was given to me by God. Which is true in a sense. One of the many things I love about God is that He never lets me go too far. He gave me the understanding that it wasn’t that people were trying to make me EARN anything. HE was upsetting my environment so that I could OPERATE in who He created me to be.
Though some of my words were carefully placed and skillfully worded, some things just didn’t need to be said even in confidence. All it takes is one slip up to derail you from the course God intended for us to be on. Watch your mouth. With that being said I’ll end with this scripture. ❤️🙏🏾❤️
Psalms 39:1 reads:
“I said I will take heed of my ways, that I sin not with my tongue: I will keep my mouth with a bridle, while the wicked is before me.
