10/18/2024
Let me describe to you a day in my life. Currently I do not have an address I am staying in a hotel since 9/5 what I lot my place to live. I am very sick, have been for the past year worse than ever. I have a heart and lung condition that has me whipped out 24/7. I do take meds for it but they will not cure me. I can barely walk with a walker and I rarely leave my house ( when I was there). My day usually consists of waking up from my very uncomfortable sleep. My legs are worse than ever and I am in pain all night. This is due to my heart not pumping well and causing my circulation to be bad in my lower legs. Also because I get so short of breath I am exhausted after I do anything ( like walk to the bathroom) so I mostly lay in bed all the time. This is not good for the body and my legs are weak and very stiff. It's worse after I have had to be up all day. Like packing boxes. I have gone through most everything I own and am throwing away a lot! I have a ton of jewelry making supplies I guess I am gonna sell ( although it breaks my heart). But I just can't do it anymore. So these days I contemplate my situation and it breaks my heart I can't do the things I loved like playing guitar, making jewelry and seeing my 2 year old grandson, Caleb. โค๏ธ I have been too sick to even make it to his birthday party. I mostly sleep ( another side effect from my heart/ lung condition). Believe me it gets pretty sick and tired of being sick and tired. I keep hoping I'm gonna get better but I don't. I am only 61 and I feel 90! I tell you all this because up to now I've carried this burden alone and definitely haven't shared. But I figure that if I come on this platform and ask for help then I'm gonna just be real about what I am going through. Maybe some one out there would appreciate something I say and I don't know maybe it would help someone. I don't want or need sympathy. My perspective is different but hopefully inspiring. God has a plan for each of us , I'm trying to figure out what His plan is for me. I got nothing but time to learn. Take care and love each other every minute of every day. Life is short and precious๐๐๐๐