Bead and Bone Designs

09/28/2025

In a world of selfishness…be the light.

09/28/2025

✨💖09.09.2013💖✨My water broke at 5am and I delivered my girl at 5pm. And the two most influential narcissists of my life were in the delivery room with me. And within a couple hours they both left, leaving me alone with my beautiful daughter, because they had more important things to do-total disregard for me and my baby.
And that was how the next 12 years went-me and her together always. “Team “Mommy-Rylee” as we always say. And I spent this entire time determined to provide a different world for her than what I had been given.
Making sure my child knew without a doubt how loved, how safe, and how supported she was by a mother who was facing silent battles day after day, behind the scenes. Protecting my child’s heart and joyful spirit while secretly fighting a war against lies, manipulations, and abuse.
I poured my entire being into creating stability for my child in every way possible. I was a shield AND a nurturer, ensuring Rylee was safe even while I was under attack.
And as she is growing up and moving into a new era of more independence, I have to believe that the years of love, guidance, protection, and integrity have planted seeds deep within her subconscious that she will be able to call upon when life’s raw truths come into her vision.
Even if my sweet girl chooses to stray, in blind belief of fabricated and false reality, those seeds can’t be uprooted. They were planted by a woman forged through the fires of a world that tried to break her at every turn.
There aren’t enough words to capture the complexity, heartbreak, and grace of this mama’s love for her daughter. My instinct is to hold on and protect forever even while darkness tries to erase all my sacrifices with the illusion of endless bu****it promises.
But sometimes a mother’s greatest act of love is to let her child walk away to face the world that awaits. Another chapter in heartbreak. Dropping my sword and choosing love above all else. Knowing that she can always look to me for a vision of reclaiming wholeness, living in integrity, and building resilience from rock bottom.
Happy birthday to my courageous girl. I have loved you fiercely and will continue to, until end of time!

09/19/2025

❤️‍🩹My body ALWAYS a reflects my relationships. Not just with other people but with myself.

Not all manipulators are narcissists.
After a couple years of recovery from narcissistic abuse, I thought I had things figured out, and married again.

I fell for someone who put on a front, who made agreements, who hid their identity, to win me over. I assumed because I was completely transparent, that he was too. But it was all a lie.

I suffocated my inner dissonance with food. Using sugar as a drug to get high on dopamine was a coping mechanism I learned in childhood.☹️

I struggled the ENTIRE marriage. Betrayed and confused. I didn’t understand why he kept pointing a finger at me. So I turned to sugar and shut my inner voice.

Covert contracts.
Passive aggressive comments.
Validation seeking.
Projection.
Devaluing my perspective.
And one sided emotional unloading of his feelings without reciprocity, consent, or regard for my boundaries…

My inner guidance was screaming at me to look at these things but I stuffed it down with food. Because I was ashamed to be trapped in a toxic marriage again.🤢

Even when I finally ended it, I still took the blame. But as I healed my body and was able to look at these things once I was out of the toxic environment, I heard what my inner guidance and my body had been telling me the whole time:

It wasn’t my fault❗️
But it was my responsibility to learn and integrate the truths about myself that the situation had highlighted.💥

I was a target for liars and manipulators because I ignored my truth. 💔I was so desperate for love and jumped into relationships so quickly because I didn’t love myself. I punished myself with food in order to blame my body as an excuse to be miserable. 😞

The more I accepted my truth, the more my body healed. 🧘‍♀️I didn’t build a new me. I uncovered the authentic person who had been there the whole time, buried under layers of conditioning and false narratives.💪🏻💪🏻

When you own your 💩💩, your body responds. 🔥And when you work on your body, your inner guidance gets louder. The relationship to yourself is EVERYTHING in this life‼️

12/17/2024

Triple wrap leather bracelets with magnetic clasps: navy, brown, grey, black. Stacked with beaded bracelets or alone they are 🔥🔥

12/17/2024

Chrysocolla cabochon set in sterling silver with sandalwood mala beads. Tibetan charm stretch bracelets also available❤️☮️DM for info

12/14/2024

You can burn all the sage…say all the affirmations…virtue signal your consciousness all over the internet…but your frequency will always give your truth away. If people leave the room when you walk in or if they shut down in conversation with you…it’s time for some real work on your subconscious mind.

12/14/2024

12/14/2024

Handmade artisan beaded jewelry. Matte black jasper beads, repurposed mala beads, handwoven wrap bracelets Everything handmade. All available for purchase separately. Buy yourself something unique.

12/13/2024

Chakra stretch bracelets! 2 styles available with all chakras represented. All pieces have been energetically cleansed and come with free palo santo for you to keep them and your own field clear!

12/10/2024

Beaded layering necklaces made with semiprecious gemstone, wood, shell, metal, and bone beads. DM for info on pricing and lengths available.

12/09/2024

Currently available: unisex beaded necklace with septarian nodule stone set in sterling silver. Beads include semiprecious gemstone Bronzite as well as coconut shell and wood. Pendant was metalsmithed by hand by me. Raise your hand if interested 🙋‍♂️🙋‍♀️🙋 Septarian is a grounding stone that helps bring up energy from the earth through the root chakra. This helps to process deep seated emotions and trauma and can help with communication.