01/09/2026
Hi guys ❤️
I'm sorry, but I won't be live tonight. It seems that what starts as a good day can quite often turn into something far more stressful than anticipated... because apparently my life enjoys a plot twist! 😂
I've been doing a lot of thinking about Big Blue and the life I'm currently trying to navigate, and I think, for now, I'm going to stop promising lives or putting pressure on myself to show up at a particular time.
Instead, I'm going to focus on creating content when things are a little more settled, and when I actually have the brain space and physical energy to do it properly.
As much as I'm very aware that the business needs to keep moving to survive, I'm also having to be realistic. The lives have become relatively quiet lately, yet they take a considerable amount of preparation and energy — energy that, if I'm brutally honest, I desperately need right now just to keep myself vaguely aligned with planet Earth! 🤣
That doesn't mean I'm disappearing or stopping Big Blue. Far from it.
I'm still completely happy to take live orders from my wonderful regular customers, who I appreciate more than you probably realise. ❤️ I'm also wondering whether we could do something slightly different with the remaining tombola prizes?
Perhaps I could create a lineup through messages beforehand, you reserve/order your place, and then pay on the night we would have gone live? That way, I can organise everything in advance and have focused, back-to-back work to complete at the appropriate time rather than spreading myself across seventeen different directions at once!
Does that make sense? And more importantly... what do you think?
My life right now consists of final criminology exams, a beautiful new baby, music video editing, photo editing, two businesses, and approximately 4,762 other things that seem to require my immediate attention. 😂
And whilst I won't pretend that I'm feeling particularly fulfilled by the chaos at the moment, I also recognise that sometimes life requires you to knuckle down, get your head down, smile your way through the short-term madness and trust that eventually you'll come out the other side.
To add another little sprinkle of anxiety onto the cake, at the end of September, my birthday is being blessed with a rather god-awful mouth surgery — which I'm already massively overthinking and fully anticipating to be bloody awful! 😂
But... I've not disappeared, guys.
I'm still here. Big Blue is still here.
I'm merely navigating each day with a questionable amount of organisation, very little spare brain capacity, and honestly not much clue how I'm managing to keep all the plates spinning. 🤣
For now, I'm going to give myself permission to stop forcing things that aren't currently working and instead focus my energy where it is needed most.
Sometimes adapting isn't giving up. Sometimes it's simply recognising that you can't pour from an empty cup... particularly when someone keeps adding more bloody cups to the table! 😂
Thank you, as always, for sticking with me. ❤️
