08/06/2026
Lacemaking is a lifetime of learning
..and a psychological journey between patience, doubt, discipline and trust.
Sometimes I catch myself staying close to the patterns, grounds and threads I already know. There is comfort in what is familiar. I know how these materials behave, I know where the risks are, and I know that the result will probably work. Trying something new asks for a different kind of courage. It means accepting that the time, energy and hope invested may not bring the result I imagined.
A thread may look beautiful, glamorous and full of promise, but once the bobbins are wound, it can turn out to be too fragile to work with. A pattern may appear perfectly clear in my mind, but when I try to bring it into reality, it resists me. The idea and the material do not always meet in the way I expected.
This is part of being an artist. Experimenting always carries the possibility of disappointment. What is harder, though, is not the technical failure itself. It is what begins to happen inside after the second, third or fourth attempt. When the pattern still does not work, when the colours feel wrong, when the concept loses its shape, the problem slowly stops feeling external. It starts to feel personal.
You begin to question not only the work, but yourself.
Am I good enough to make this? Do I have enough skill? Enough imagination? Enough patience? At some point, the doubt can become louder than the artwork. It can take up more space than the piece itself.
But I am learning that doubt is not proof that I cannot do it. Doubt is often the place where growth is happening before I can see it. It is the uncomfortable space between what I already know and what I am trying to become capable of.
So I continue. Not because I never doubt myself, but because I do. I continue because each failed attempt teaches my hands, my eyes and my mind something new. I continue because the moments of uncertainty are not outside the creative process. They are part of it.
They become part of the next piece. ❤️