04/07/2026
This weekend was so spiritually filling! I learned that God does hear us when we talk to Him. He does respond. We just need to pay attention and look around us with intention and an open heart ♥️ ✝️
Soooo close! Goal is 124
Ideally- I plan to drop the lbs, then weight train at Least 3 days a week with daily cardio (at least 3mile power walk ) and gain 15lbs muscle
I’ve watched my son transform from being super skinny up until age 15, to where he is now.. competitive body builder, his muscles have muscles and the trick?
There is no trick! It’s all mind set and consistency! He works hard every 👏single👏 day! My best friend calls him Thor, rightfully so!
He has been my biggest inspiration. He’s a wealth of knowledge and experience. I’m beyond proud of him.
I want to be the best version of myself partially because of him!
I don’t ever want to be the nice/funny mom that the family is embarrassed to have around them in public (they never said they were ever embarrassed but you know how kids are.. they’re mean and “whys your mom so fat “ can mess with a kids head and emotions)
AND I want to be able to run around with my grandchildren when that happens.
I started this journe two and a half years ago At first, I thought this was impossible… the first few months were rough and I truly hated myself
I hated myself for allowing myself to become the morbidly obese being, looking to food as soul fuel, instead of reaching up to God to heal and learn who I am.
I CHOSE myself about 6 months in to this, and decided I deserved more. I realized, while I was bringing myself through the wringer every day, no longer looking to food for comfort, there was a deeper hunger inside me.. an emptiness that even food couldn’t fulfill. I was lacking my heart connection with God.
It had been repeatedly suggested to me to attend the amazing church I now attend .. I figured, what do I have to lose?
Wouldn’t you know, the more I attended, the more I started to listen, the more I started to “look up”, I was finding it easier to look deeper within myself to learn why I had leaned on the ample toxic crap I filled my body with for decades.
This isn’t just a physical journey, it’s also a soul journey. I honestly believe that had I not decided to trust the ENTIRE process, and really lean in, and surrender my guilt and self hate to God, I would still be shoving all the food down my throat…. I realized that stuff was all quick fixes, quick dopamine hits, and the moment that buzz wore off, that “fake fullness” went away, I’d be right back to ordering more meals online, or cooking whatever I had in the cabinets and shoveling more down my throat.
I am so grateful for the guidance I have been gifted through therapy, and the lighter load I now feel, as I continue to heal the deeper trauma wounds in my core, that only God can heal
I challenge you
On your journey, if you stall on your journey, talk to God. Same way you’d talk to your best friend - tell Him your struggles, your fears, ask Him anything.
He already knows your heart, and loves you. Even if you feel lost or forgotten.
I’m learning that God allows you to fall, but will always be there to lift you back up It may not be right away, because it’s often during or in that fall .. that we learn the most.
Surrender your secrets and your negative self talk, and trust the process
If you’re in my area, I’d be more than happy to have you sit with me - any Sunday at our church. We welcome everyone
