12/10/2025
Hi friends. These days of little light and much dark always cause me to ponder why things need to be this way. Why they are the way they are. I guess it’s appropriate as this is the time of year when we reflect and do the deep inner work. It seems now especially, things are darker, more fraught with tension, and there is even less light than usual. All the chaos and drama on our national and global stage has moved me to retreat into my own reality. I’ve had to focus on what is really important - what matters most in this life - what do I want to experience and what do I want my experience to be? As I’ve pared down the inputs into my awareness and culled the outside noise, I’ve slowly begun to realise that it is the simplest of things that have meaning. Witnessing first light in the morning, low lying clouds that obscure parts of the mountains and create the most magickal mystique, the warmth and sensation of a purring kitten on your chest. I have been learning all over again to appreciate more moments, that consumerism is not the fulfillment we crave, that slow is how nature is designed. I am giving myself more permission to be slow, to do in my own time, to not judge how long something takes or even how well I perform, but to keep showing up, even when I don’t wanna. I have been finding comfort in deliberate action. I’m doing things for the sake of pleasure, and more importantly, I’m doing things that move in support of what I want my life to be. Even when it means I’m tired and comfy and don’t want to get up and clean the kitchen after dinner. I do it as a gift to my future self. In the morning, when I get up and walk into a clean kitchen, it makes everything ok. That, my friends, is priceless.
I spent quite awhile working on this piece. When I knew what I wanted to do it kept what ifing me. What if we did this? What if we tried that? I rode that long and winding road until it spilled out into its final iteration. Weeks of playing, it doesn’t look a whole lot like my original idea, but it was that idea that sparked the journey. So it often is with my pieces. I have to listen to them. Getting excited about something you created such as a … continued below
