04/09/2026
oh boy.. i thought i was ready to look back on photos but i just ended up in tears! 😭 ill be real when i say i started to be whimsy and cute with this post but that quickly fizzled out because i don’t want to perform, i just want to be. i want to share an insanely important piece of my life with you, in hopes you might see a glimmer of the real me. i want to share more of the monthly letters i write.. they are cathartic for me, a pinprick reminder that i made it through another month. august’s edition is one of my absolute favs i have ever written.
maine is one of my most favorite places on earth and i get to go there every year with my favorite people. i get to see my favorite birds there, up close and personal. they had a babies this year and let me get close, so close i could see every marking on each of their plumage and tell who was who by mid week. it is a place i can always write in, and about. it endlessly inspires. it is a place that has held every version of myself no matter how wild she was, no matter how sad she was, no matter how lost or unsure. i have created here. i dreamt up designs that you hold in your hands. i have been endlessly inspired by nature, the way the lake holds me. this year, i swear we saw aliens. it gets so damn dark out you can see the whole sky, it’s unbelievable and daunting. there is no way it is just us on the dock staring up at the vastness. i have the best french toast here and the best blueberries right off the branch. i have cried over highschool crushes and university lovers on the dock and kissed my husband, healed and happy, in the exact spot (he’s the only person who has been worthy of coming to my sacred family place with me). i am completely unrecognizable now to the young girl i was, and still it’s the one place in the world i feel at peace. i laugh so damn hard up here. no really, we go to this restaurant every year and i don’t know what they put in the water but we all get the giggles and it’s glorious! ice cream every single night without fail. more giggles! i let go of things here, it’s a place i can do that, i can lay things to rest. i can let go of control and just get to simply exist between the pines 🌲